I'm leaving this place for good. I'm not abandoning it, it has been around when I was happy. It always feels good reading archives, reliving those joyful moments.

But,

it's filled with misery, too much for me to handle.

So I'll bring some sadness away, and leave all the happiness behind, to be shared with all out there.

Goodbye, good old faithful blog.

I feel the heat in my calves. Hmmm! So glad that I pulled through the jog (together with IRONMAN!). Its a new route this time round. Tomorrow night, I'm gonna go explore other areas! *Beams.

As I was cooling down, I passed by that faithful place and thought of that particular guy. Suddenly, one of Leehom's tunes rang in my head. How I wish the lyrics will go KABOOM, and become true!

HAHAHA fantasize fantasize!

Look at my sweet lil' angel! She makes tuition so much less torturous! Yesterday, she was lying on the ground while doing problem solving verbally. WTH. Super cute la. HAHA.

And fat pig ken will be finally out of field camp tomorrow. HAHA hope he didn't get stung by big fat millipedes or something. Who knows, it has already happened and he's having some THICK SAUSAGE LIPS now. LOL. (I think he's sneezing away, with someone cursing him now.)

Watchey watchey! FINALLY IT'S MINE!! What a beauty, really!

DAMN HIGH DAMN HIGH DAMN HIGH!

Just finished watching SawII.

DAMN NICE DAMN NICE DAMN NICE.

I can't wait for SawIV to be out! YEAH, to those who thought SawIII marks the end, you can now look forward to more action. Yum yum!

I want my spiderman 1 and 2 dvds! Argh.

Brunch today was at Carnivore Vivo. WOO. Its yummilicious. The cuts came non-stop at the first round, so naturally we were bloated after clearing our plates once. Dex was telling us about his dream and it was hilarious! I really pity Shang at times, he must have been sneezing non-stop at home!

We pigged out at Haagen Daz after that. And then, it was home and tuition for me.

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I have an extremely short concentration span. I can't seem to be able to finish things up completely. Be it work matters or goals in my life. Despite being enthusiastic in the first place, I end up losing interest when things get draggy. I hate myself for being like this.

I am not pleased with my life now. I want school to start! Yet, I am afraid of the hectic lifestyle I'll be facing. School, projects, CCAs, tuitions and more. Stucked in between.

I feel as if I'm wasting my days away. Monday, Tuesday, blah blah, Sunday and YEAH, the cycle repeats. Nothing achieved, no targets ahead. Every small reward I give myself now seems ultra sinful. But if I don't, I think I'll just crumble inside.

See, stucked there again.

ARGH. So wrecked. So frustrating. I don't know what to do. Can I just sleep till the rainbow appears again?

Finally met up with baobei Siying today (together with mun)! Just lazed around at Raffles City S.C. and had some staff-priced Ben&Jerry's! Yummy. We were back to our kopi-chats (missing a member this time round), except that the setting was a lot classier.

The good old days! How we used to just nua around at the grandstand and kopitiam outside school on Thursday evenings.

Our crap-dao-bao was updating us about her Bangkok trip! She bought HELL LOTSA STUFF WITH DAMN LITTLE AMOUNT OF $$. OH MY OH MY. I'm super keen to go there now!

All along I've always heard people saying that the stuff there is like damn cheap, but I've never had a chance to experience it myself.

I don't care. I MUST GO DURING THIS JUNE.

Forget about GSS (25th May- 22th July!). HAHA, duh!

I finally received my DAMN BIG LETTER, like after a week! SO HIGH! I practically read the whole booklet. Haha, what an idiot.

I tried my night jogging for the first time around my estate! Super uber tiring, but its so fulfilling! Now I'm wondering, how do I bring Mr. Walkman along during my jogs? I need some TECHNO HIGH TEMPO music to keep me motivated! This jojobanana is one lazy arse currently.

You should really look at the amount of weight I've put on since the tioman trip. Scary, I tell you! It seems like I'm suffering from water retention everyday. HAHA!

Time to shed shed SHED it all off! Which equal to jog jog JOG everyday!

I met up with zonglin in school, thinking to do some catching up. Who knows, I ended up making new friends! Through the super dumb concentration game. Each of us have 4 identities, that makes it 20 names in total. We played for more than an hour! Can you imagine that?! Damn high. HAHA.

Last but not least, its
SEANIE POOOOO'S BIRTHDAY!

LOL! The super suggestive photo. Oh please, he's just a pseudo BF who is somewhat like a brother cum buddy. Hey friend, don't kill me for posting this up! HAHA. Enjoy your ARMY POLICE (Oops!) DAYS. :)

I'm feeling extremely relieved that today's Labour Day! I'm always looking forward to the weekends, so its even more special when I can take a day off during weekdays! Yippy yea yea.

We came up with this lameshit after computer class. Jy needs to see a trichologist, she has the least amount of hair. Haha.

Dinner was not a filling one but overall it was okay. We got to talk to uncle Christopher who was a POW during J.O years! None of us knew that POWs now have free memberships to SAFRA clubs! Haha. Okay, that's kinda off. Hmmm, the main thing is that he was shot multiple times and still survived! WOW.

I am one happy girl today. I realise that everyday, I get more stable with my feelings. And I'm learning how to control, and not supress it as I go along. This is looking so good!



I can almost smell the freshness of the morning.