bought my gown. bought my gown. bought my gown! yippie! daniel yam's. was too lazy to go in search for more. so after trying on a pink one (which i quite like), i saw the man pushing in the stand with a few new gowns (i assume). then, there was one with blended colours of blue, brown, purple and some other weird combinations. weird but nice. =) and there's only one piece! tried on, and yeah, THAT'S IT! but sigh, $135.45! but i did not hestitate, just bought it and promised myself to save up next time. anyway money is just a material part of life, so i shouldn't feel guilty! muahahas! Daniel Radcliffe i love you man!

woot. havent been blogging for days. hmmm. i had good fun these days! since last wednesday, which was my birthday. lols. collected quite a number of presents from all my wonderful friends! firstly was siqi, who gave me a box of cadbury milk tray chocolates and a doggy soft toy. eugene gave me an astrology book. liting, yee eng and many others gave me a piggy drawer set? and a red g-string. alamak. teckhao and changtai gave a necklace. sean bought a bar of energy chocolate from gnc. =/ shiyun gave a box of ferrero rocher, and huiying gave a super sweet lookin metal bookmark. although there're not alot of presents, i still wanna thank all of you! haven't received presents for more than a year. hahas. but with so many chocos around, i can't squeeze into the prom gown already!

went out with michelle for shopping last thurs. shopped around orchard and after that, she came over to stay. bought a pink mango top, which i wore on friday for steamboat. hahas. it was fun having steamboat with you guys! killing prawns was a no-no for me, but shelling them was fun. hahas. reached home quite late. =X met the boys at amkcc on sat in the late afternoon. played bball for awhile with rongjun too. then melvin, teckhao, changtai, jenn hui and me went for pool at amk central, with liting and yee eng. hmmm, haven't played pool for a long time! luckily i still remember how to shoot. hahas. went to mel's house for dinner and Harry Potter movie. lols. bought the vcd finally! reached home late too.

sunday was slacking and 'studying' day for me. watched Barbie as the Princess and the Pauper in the morning. it's so nice! i love the barbie series! used the com for the rest of the day. sigh.

monday was the last paper-sci mcq. it's alright, not too tough. liting and gang came to my house after the paper, and met rongjun for job hunting. went down to town. had some results, but not really interested in the jobs. shopped for prom gown too, and we walked from 1100-2000. =X legs were becoming wobbly when i reached home.

permed my hair yesterday with shiyun at toa payoh's kimage. her mum's so nice! how i wish my mum's like that. well, i'm so satisfied with this new style! whahahas. *flying up into the sky* met mum at orchard for dinner, and shopped for awhile too.

went to school today for the 'jc talk' which was quite useless. they should just pass us the booklet and let us leave. met siqi and we four (me, siqi, cheryl, jieying) went to ps for movie-Saw. hey it's nice! we screamed for some parts, felt disgusted occasionally, laughed heartily, but it's nice! not as gruesome as what the preview shows. it's kind of mysterious and you have to really think in depth for the truth behind the whole story. it's about a killer who doesn't kill but killed many. those who don't appreciate life were his victims. many parts were unexpected, and the ending. well, it's not your kind of 'lived happily ever after' fairytale ending, it's a sad ending. means the killer won. hahas. quite sadistic and stupid, but i like it. =) i recommend you guys to go catch it. shopped at orchard (again) for gowns and we were quite interested in Daniel Yam's. they're gorgeous and beautiful, but expensive.

hmmm, quite troubled now actually. can't decide on the entry to jc or poly. argh! i'm pleased with my prelims results, but i daresay that o's will not be as good. sobs. nvm, i still have two days to decide. Daniel Radcliffe is so handsome! i want Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire to be out quickly! gonna watch it for five times at least. whahahas. it's possible k!

don't feel like blogging. whahahas. but i had fun these days. shall post another day! Daniel Radcliffeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy birthday, to that special someone.

i hate my mum i hate my mum i hate my mum! ARGH! can't she just stop whatever she's doing now? she's becoming a freak! all she knows is going out to enjoy and live a luxurious life. when she comes home, she'll just nag non-stop as if i have elephant ears to listen. she pampers my brother more and i hate her favouritism! the accumulation makes me get all trapped up inside. and i'm so used to the loneliness at home i just hope she doesn't get home everyday.

i hate her showing concern and showering me with love at times. i don't need those now, after isolating me for so long these two years. all i feel is numbness in my heart. i hate her scolding me for doing badly in any tests or exams, but i don't see her praising me when i get good grades. what is this man? i hate her giving me such a tiny bit of freedom. i didn't mix with the wrong company or whatsoever and she thinks that all my friends are bad people. i need a social life k, so what's wrong with having guy friends? argh she's just having an old-fashioned way of thinking and that irks me. why do others have loving mothers that listen to their problems and give advices, and mine just asking stupid questions that irritates me all the time?

i hate it when i like someone and that person merely treats me as his friend. why am i that ill-fated? i'm never lucky at love, and that sucks. no matter what i do, things still remain the same. i hate it when he acts as if nothing has happened and live life normally. i'd rather he tell me off straight in the face that we're not suited for each other than keep me in suspense. i hate it! i hate it when people break their promises.

i hate it when people copy me and act in a way i do. oh please, get a life. i hate it when exams are so near and i can't seem to get anything into my head. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME! i hate it when i get too complacent about things and end up falling down again. i hate it when people who are better than me start boasting around or get too humble that they start saying "no lah, i'm very stupid" or "i really never study lah" for goodness sake, it's a fact so face it, saying such things hurt those below you even more.

i hate to see people (as mentioned in jean's blog before) who have multiple friendster accounts. that's just a sign of showing off, and it's extremely stupid. i hate it when i spend birthdays alone. i hate it when people around me joke and make me laugh when i'm sad, why are they all so nice? =( i hate it when the tissue gets used up when i cry. i hate it when my nose block didn't heal after i cry. i hate it when my alarm clock didn't wake me up, making me miss Digimon. (this morning.)

i'm feeling so inferior right now. well, i do have suicidal thoughts at times, but i feel so silly too. sigh.

i am BBBBOOOORRRREEEEDDDDDDDDD.

i'm so hungry! ate two sushis, one sausage and egg bread and one tuna puff the whole day. [all junk food!] well, was at the library with weejia since 1030 and we slacked there till around 1700. took alot of books and browsed through them. four beauty books, one love story and two mysteries. lols. but i slept there for most of the time. there seems to be some kinda hypnotism effect in the air.

today's geog paper was well, acceptable. i've lost a couple of marks already. gonna mug mug MUG this whole week through! [it's easier said than done. =X] and unfortunately, i'm down with a terrible sorethroat. argh! it feels so itchy down there. got lotsa phlegm stucked inside! pui! time to rest, night! Daniel Radcliffe is sssoooo handsome. x)

doing some geog questions now. not in the mood to read through my textbook. reason: laziness! hahas. yesterday's emaths p2 was slightly easier than p1. checked up with the rest, haven't got a mistake up to now. hope things carry on this way! well, math's my only hope now. today's chemistry paper was alright, at least it's easier than that bloody physics paper. sigh, calculated how much i will fare for sciences. i don't think i can even secure a distinction. ARGH! i'm afraid i'll have to let mrs ong down.

10+6=16 (confirmed wrong.)
200-16=184
184-20=164 (error marks.)
164/2=82

my predictions (optimistic):
eng-3, sci-2, emaths-1, amaths-1, humans-3, chi-3.
total 13. :(

is that the best i can go? NO! i'm utterly disappointed in myself. forget it. let's talk about some happy stuffs. 13 more days and i'll be free! 8 more days and i'll be sixteen! although i don't think there'll be any celebration or whatsoever, but i'm still anticipating to it's coming. lols. it just makes me feel great!

by the way, sara's out of America's Next Top Model! argh! i cried during the elimation yesterday. just seeing her sob so bitterly makes me sad. she's so beautiful! hmmm, the weird thing is, those people whom i support in contests these days keep getting eliminated. first were jeassea and maia from SI, next was john k from Survivor, than it was rebekah from For Love or Money, and now it's sara. woots! am i the jinx or what? lols. hope this doesn't happen during the next season of Amazing Race! whahahas. can't wait to catch it. ok, gotta run now. Daniel Radcliffeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;)

counting down!

11 days to my special day! [sweet sixteen!]
16 days to my last o's paper! [freedom!]

the past few papers were terrible. help! mother tongue, OMG, a disaster! think i'll probably get a sucky grade, even worse than the previous results. for social studies, luckily i emphasized on sec3 text, but i know i won't do well too, as usual. =/ lols. english was quite tough too. praying hard that my essay won't get out of point and my summary will have everything relevant.

physics, ARGH, the worse of all! i've already lost 9marks, and i cannot guarantee that there won't be any other careless mistakes! grrrr, literature was quite ok. i was thinking about Daniel Radcliffe during the exam, and wasted quite alot of time. hahas. for emaths, well, a few careless mistakes here and there. for amaths, 4marks are confirmed to be gone already. i was doing the exam in agony-a terrible tummyache! hope that i'll get better throughout the weekend.

as for graduation, should it be a happy or sad thing? sigh, can't bear to leave 4justice. it's the class where i shared all my weals and woes, where the primetime of my secondary school life took place. the thought of leaving just makes me wanna cry. especially in our old classroom, we ran, we screamed, we joked, we laughed. the unity is just so great. arghhh. i'll never be able to find another class like this.

well, Daniel Radcliffe is still as cute! ;)