okay i know i'm nuts blogging at this critical moment. i'm so not prepared for mid-years. CLAO is crappy, dont even have time to finish the darn paper. FIRST TIME EVER IN MY LIFE. usually, there's extra time for a short nap during chinese papers. arghhhh haha whatever, its over.

was almost going berserk when i was studying on my bed in the afternoon. couldnt sit still you see. as a result i spoilt my radio! arghhhh. now the right speaker doesnt produce any sound.

i feel like laughing when i think of you. okay i'm already laughing. haha...

its a bad day, seriously bad. studied in school and jogged about 4.5km in the evening. it felt good, like a kind of stress reliever.

well, i think i'm making my own life miserable. i dont know what i'm doing anymore, i dont even know myself. i've created so much trouble, for myself, and for you.

i'm sorry..

my day is ruined. ARGH. stupid yiyang! i feel like killing him before i kill myself.

seeing my secret slowly leaking out when i couldnt do a single thing to stop it.
SO HELPLESS MAN.

even God cant save me this time round. sigh.

boohoo i havent start revising biology yet. only finished 70% of chemistry. am i slow or am i slow? been going back to school everyday this week and i found out that school library has been the most conducive place so far, but still not good enough! sigh.

yeah ive bought Backstreet Boys' new album already, and i had my first Kenny Roger's meal with seanie today. yumyum! i always get good food when im out with seanie.

lost the mood to continue. BLEH.

so worn out. so useless hahaha.

went to serangoon stadium for my long-awaited jog, dued to some unforeseen circumstances, i chose not to do it in school haha. didnt meet my target of 5km and that's saddening, i did only 4.05km. sigh! this is the first time ive ever gave up. goodness where is the motivation!?

anyway, i'm chaotah already. tagged along to watch the dragonboat championship on saturday. guess something went wrong and NYDB didnt perform too well. but guys, dont get demoralised! work hard for the competition in july and get back the glory you deserve! :)

made our way down to changi airport in the evening and the two of us (seemun and me) just stoned and chatted while seeing planes take off. though it wasnt a perfect view but it was good enough as a place for heart-to-heart chatting. stayed over at her place after that and chatted more! haha.

had dinner with the big family to celebrate grandma's birthday yesterday and uncle alex said ive slimmed down since lunar new year. HAHA had my eyebrow raised but of course i was grinning inside. pigs can fly! yippy yeah yeah.

not too much time left before the mid-years exams start. in fact, only 10 days! haha start counting down people. sounds stressful eh? but whats wrong with me! i aint feeling anything LOL. i need help!

tomorrow's 11june, the day many dragonboaters are looking forward to i supposed. just wanna say, good luck NYDB! to regina, wanyee, errol, songguang and kenneth, all the best guys! :)

Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to bloggie.
Happy birthday to you!



yeap, my lovey dovey bloggie is one year old! time flies isnt it. haha.

bad news people. amk library isnt of much help! managed to finish one chapter of chemistry. but its like, what the hell. haha about six hours in the library and i'm only done with this? bummer.

watched 'lost' and i think its pretty dumb. i was anticipating to something more.. gruesome? haha! but i guess most of those part will be censored off. hey i want the gross stuff! grins* anyway, they've got hot casts. that's the good thing about the show teeheehee.

ive got nothing more to say! still on cloud nine though. but should i give up? i was thinking, the more i wish for something, the more it wont happen. am i being pessimistic? hmmm simply lost! haha.

yippy. things are cleared. its a sunny day once again! smile with me people!



one whole day wasted just like that.
one apgp sum.
one set of chemistry notes. (still at its first page)
talk.
nap.
computer.

there you have it, summary of my day spent. haha. will be going back to amk library from tomorrow onwards and start reminising about the o level times? missed the good old days man. realised that i cant find any place that is conducive enough for me to do my revision! hope everything will turn out well tomorrow lol.

i'm in super high spirits since the late evening. gonna share the joy! you made my day, or rather, my week! giggles and runs away* (crazy woman)

met a whole gang of mf people in the evening, and the 21 of us were at marina south having steamboat dinner, celebrating dorcas' birthday which falls on 9june.

Happy Birthday in advance! :)

learnt to play snooker and its much more difficult than pool. we took more than an hour to complete one game. finished my bath and now i'm right here, sitting in front of the computer.

the past six months have really been filled with adventures, but this is still the first time i've ever done such a thing. it couldnt be more disgraceful, and i know there's nothing more i can do to redeem myself. maybe redeem is not the right word. i cant seem to figure out what i've done wrong to make you so frustrated. you can never understand the pain inflicted on me. i seem to have lost hope in everything. maybe simplicity can be a bliss too. maybe ego can really kill someone...

i feel like jumping off the building. i dont know what i've been doing these days. i've gone mad. yes, i've seriously gone mad! arrrrgghhhhhh!

allow me to vanish into thin air, at this very moment...

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO BLOG! hahaha.

just wanna make this short and sweet. seemun you rock! thanks for being there for me all these while eh? i'm utterly touched by your messages at times. perhaps sometimes i might be too harsh with my words or actions, sorry about that. there're lots of emotions inside that i just cant put down in words here. but the main thing is.. thanks :)

it has been a wonderful day! sinister laughter follows*

well, at least i finished trigonometry T11, i bet many out there have yet to start! laughs again* been trying real hard to complete the maths holiday assignment, but i lack the ability man. boohoo, cant remember the binomial formula and inequalities is driving me crazy!

what's more, i have banana cake all over my new bag! thanks to myself.

enough of the sad news.

now to the good ones. yeah, went to seemun's house today and i think it's rather cosy, unlike mine :/ we did some stupid things, like measuring each other's height. i think only she can get what i mean. HAHA. attended a dance performance - Synesthesia, at the indoor stadium in the late evening, with shufang and her gang of friends. it was awesome. i may be quite unrealistic here but yes, i'm dreaming to be like any one of the dancers there. green with envy!

got a new goal recently, which is to learn how to play drums! look at this set of red drums man. its huolala too. wishing that it's mine. hiak hiak.



having some kinda mixed feelings. been reflecting upon myself and i dont know what i've been doing all along. put myself in seemun's shoes, and i realised how she felt then. give up without trying? that is not jojo's style at all. but still, dreams are always far away arent they? i'm sinking deeper in and i'm at a point of no return..

i feel like a failure. HELP!