Friday, August 05, 2005
for the past three hours, whenever I happen to look at the screen's clock at the bottom, it would be the 33rd minute. it just leads me to think of
something related.
I think I've been acting strangely since wednesday. I was behaving hysterically without any sense? I guess seemun and yating sensed that something was amiss yesterday, but I couldnt tell them the reason. I'm happy for seemun, things are looking good for her :)
got scolded by damn chong first thing in the morning. ruined my day instantly. had no choice but to attend the useless gp lectures in the future. he knew more or less that I wasnt there for the past few times and was just faking it. I wasnt paying much attention during tutorials too. whats more, eleanor wasnt in school today. I was alone almost throughout. get well soon girl! school's different without you around.
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eleven days ago, I was a happy girl. now, eleven days later, my world comes crumbling down. perhaps all along it was just a wishful thinking on my part that things are fine, when in actual fact they are not. tried to force the tears out but unable to. I cant cry.
I never understood why..
The day has ended.
22:44
