messed up life. got so much work to catch up with, till the extent that I simply dont know where to start from. haha. finally done with vectors tutorial. next up is to read and understand the whole chunk of biology and start on my EoM :P

I'm beginning to love Sundays. the breakfast with mum and dad seem to be getting better after every week. the family love I've longed for years is finally finding its way back. in this family, we hardly have time for each other, even when we do interact, it would be the quarrels rather than the good talks. there used to be thoughts of leaving home, but not anymore i guess :)

* * *

I wanna save more money! I need to save more money..

call me sadistic. if you like gory stuffs like me, you're in for a nasty treat. rongjun showed me this link last monday. SawII will be out in october i guess.

the ugly sights of blood, flesh and body-ripping scenes which many think are torments for their eyes.. i got influenced by this idiot and actually enjoyed watching them la. weird enough, i usually laugh at that moment, while i get my after-effects in bed that very night. haha.

i'm still waiting for sin city from seanie! woohoos.

quite a fun-filled day today. went for the ndp preview with best friend seanie. i was there for the fireworks, while he was there for the goodie bag, just like super-auntie psk. had dinner over at newton circus. yummy yummy sting rays! though chilli-coated, i didnt care and instead, continued eating. still coughing and it seems to be getting worse.

a number of things happened yesterday, and i cant help to think about them. be it in the girls toilet or the trip home, whenever i get alone, i will start to think. yes, i've come to realise a few things. let's not take things for granted, and treasure everyone. these may be facts that i believe everyone already knows, but its only when something happens that we truly understand what they really meant.

there was a sudden desire to achieve what i've always wanted, and it seemed quite silly. if i have already did it, i'm sure to regret it now. but if i dont do it soon, i may regret in the future. what a contradiction. i'm getting nowhere..

drowning myself with milk. the last time i ever drank any, was three weeks ago. deprived! although the yucky phlegm is still somewhere in the throat, its not enough to make me skip pe for the third time. boohoo. i dread pe now seriously. still cant get over the fact that i actually got assigned to play netball. ROAR!

lost what i've wanted to say . . .

everything just bounces back to normal after the high tide. well, have a good night.

OMG OMG OMG DADDY CAME HOME, WALKED INTO MY BROTHER'S ROOM, AND HANDED ME THE POTTER BOOK. WTH! WHAHAHA!

today is definitely a good day. MUACKS! :)

a lady called and asked (in mandarin) "erm, where is this?"

me "HUH?"

lady "is this world of sports?"

me "no?"

lady "oh, okay. bye."

three big lines appeared on the side on my forehead. like duhhh! when did my house number ever look like world of sports' hotline. haha. i'm down with flu. boohoo. mucus flows out of the left nostril now and then like a running tap.

planned to complete the gp comprehension, read through the biology text on the topic on DNA, analyse the two sets of vectors notes and finish up the chemistry tutorial. but seems like none will be done by tonight. HAHA what a loser. if i think that DNA is confusing enough, i'm wrong. cell division is far worse. jojo you're really gonna bid goodbye to biology.

* * *

nevertheless, its a beautiful day! i did it.. i did it.. i did it!..

the wonders of a smile..

i'm munching on some sour plum-like preserved food and seaweed. cant touch anything in the refrigerator, so i'll have to make do with these as my snacks :( i guess i have to push back my diet plan. haha still cant jog or swim until i recover. to make things worse, i went for supper with yiyang last night. sinful!

we went to hougang to have some yummy yummy nasi lemak, but i cant eat the chicken wings. what's nasi lemak without chicken wings :( well, yiyang's in a worse state than me, there's so much more he cant eat! haha! thought dad would be furious when i ask for permission to go for supper at midnight, but who knows, he wants a packet too -_- cute daddy haha!

its so convenient when you have a car around. boohoo its been ages since i last took rides on cars and just tour around. i know who to approach whenever i got cravings for such rides now! hiak hiak. we went 'sight-seeing' at changi village. yeah, transvestites. we saw a whole bunch of them! (when i only saw two when i went there last time). they're so pretty, with superb figures. i was feeling inferior duh. haha.

finally cleared my desk, which was piled with worksheets and files ever since i brought them home. felt good when i got everything organized, but it all goes back to normal after a few weeks. LOL naturally.

* * *

a smile has never been so difficult..

i took out my astrology book and did it again. this time, it produced much better results compared to 5month's ago (27 feb entry). lets see..

Mars.
If you do not have a partner, one may come into your life soon in a very bold way. he or she may just come right up to you and get the relationship going, or it may be you who overcomes the fear of rejection and acts directly and decisively.

you must be the assertive one in your relationships now, even if you are not usually that kind of person. do not wait for anyone or anything. respond quickly to anyone who contradicts you. allow yourself to act on your first impulse and do not second-guess yourself. feel the rightness of your cause.

how true is that eh? well, its still too early to say. it made me all confused again. going to school is like an adventure now. i was hoping for some kinda ending, but everything just keeps repeating and i aint doing anything. i know there's not much time left. aaRrrrGhhhHh what should i do..

* * *

it was a good day in school yesterday, time seems to past so quickly. i'm starting to love chemistry again! tutorials are getting more interesting each day. i dread gp and pw, such a waste of time. mr chong just doesnt know how to teach duhh. i believe eleanor will nod her head like mad haha.

craving for some ben and jerry's cookie dough and ikea meatballs! yiyang you are to treat me some when i recover! ROAR.

its Daniel Radcliffe's 16th birthday today, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! hahaha :)

i'm dying woohoos. haha cough has been SO bad. my lungs are rotten i guess. happened to check my medical records when i went to the doctor's last sunday, and i've been sick in january, april and july. so what's next, november? HMMM.. i've finished my medicine and i'm not any better compared to last week. guess i'm already immune to it and i need a stronger prescription. ROAR!

been crushed by the tremendous workload and i'm suffocating. genetics (biology) was a killer, cant get a hold of the chapter. vectors (math) will kill me for the second time haha. a long day for me tomorrow! math lecture at 5plus, imagine that. DUH..

many have been asking if i'm together with seanie. HAHA we just laughed la. when classmates become friends and friends become super good friends, you know its impossible for THAT kind of relationship. we like the way we are now, and we both are pretty sure that if we advance further, we might end up not being friends at all. personality clashes i say! whats more he's not my type and i'm not his. LOL i still think its funny.

i'm utterly disappointed in myself, for not being able to express myself the way i want to be. i'm feeling lousy since monday. i'm worse than a tortoise :( SLAP MYSELF!

* * *

i'm thinking of cutting my hair. how's that?

time to be a problematic teenager again. I HATE MY BRO. I HATE MY MUM. grrrrr i really hope he'll collide with a truck when he rides his stupid bike one day. call me evil call me bad, i'm freakin pissed la... maybe i should just take the chopper and whack it at him.

had two bad starts in a row. i woke up with calf cramps, right leg yesterday and the left one today. i was practically seeing someone i certainly DONT wish to see, around in school from morning till evening yesterday. WOAH thanks ar -_- but i saw a few stupid scenes in exchange, so it wasnt that bad haha.

fortunately, today is much better! haha i didnt spot any black mesh (as quoted from mimi)! a treat for my eyes! LOL..

i'm still online!

its already 1am and i have to get up in 5hours' time!

madness! hahahaha. red eyeballs, dark rings, heavy eyebags, and a totally LIFELESS look. see a walking corpse in school then! ciaos.

i g o t no l i f e... grrrrr!

been online for more than 10hours! what the hell man. LOL. had the intention of completing the math assignment when i switched on my computer, but the worksheet has been left on the table beside ever since.

currently watching true horrors, a documentary series on discovery channel. its the repeat of the zombies episode, which i've already watched on tuesday. haha too bored! not really sadistic stuff la, so its not very nice :/

nadia is back in singapore and i cant go out with them. boohoos. The Courtyard's chocolate fountain is only available on fridays and saturdays. boohoos even more. i do hope i can step out of home tomorrow :( but i think mum's gonna kill me. and with a blast of my terrible grades, duhhh byebye freedom, hello computer.

i was almost on the verge on being grounded, when i stayed over at bingen's class chalet without permission on monday. haha we're kinda tricked there as he said guests were allowed when it turned out that seemun, rong, nick and me were the only four. zzz. we felt quite awkward being in the hall of strangers, but a few of them were quite friendly and kept talking to us.

played volleyball, rested on the sun-tanning chairs by the pool, cycled along the tracks with the cool breeze blowing upon our ears, sat by the sea at night and chatted away. THIS IS LIFE. chuckles! played other games like daidee, heart attack, mahjong, murderer and that frog jump down game.

i got a new name too, maria, just because i helped to bbq the otahs? -_- dont know why i'm still elated. LOL. we were laughing like crazy throughout the whole night, and i think our laughter scared many of his classmates off. O.o made a few new friends and well, overall i had fun :)

DUH sickening bro is home. havent seen him for almost a week although we're living under the same roof. gotta scram, bye!

i'm still feeling bloated from dinner, but super satisfied. i've met my target of 6km today! i was pushing myself during the run, telling myself not to give up. 15rounds almost killed me. okay i know i'm lousy, duh!

it wasnt a good day! got back all my papers except for gp and part of biology. the E for chemistry and F (or hopefully an AO pass) for biology were more or less expected lol. SO angry la! i lost more than 10marks in math for careless mistakes, but managed to get an A, so i'm quite glad teeheehee.

been allocated to play netball for the rest of the year. goodness what is this man? i remembered putting netball as my second-last choice. SO angry again! spoke to ms tang but to no avail, i'm still stuck there.

i was late for ct and chemistry tutorial. SO angry with myself! got no sense of direction lol, forgot which classroom to go. hmmm, got a weird feeling that i'm slowly being out-casted in class. maybe i'm being too paranoid, well nevermind.

kinda fell at the stairs when i was tying up my hair while walking. SO embarrassing! lost my footing and twisted my ankle. there were people in front of me too. grrrr!

anyway, i'm sorry seemun. didnt do a good job in cheering you up. i suck at doing such things, seriously. not sure if my words made you feel better, or actually made you feel worse. but whatever i've said is what i really feel about this matter, do think about it and do what you think is best. perhaps you can think about that line mentioned in my msn nick to have a good laugh. haha imagine that gong toot toot saying it with the deepest voice ever! so cute right! haha. smile girl! :)

so tired! been out for nearly 15hours. went to esplanade area to watch the dragonboat competition and boy, it drained us out totally. perhaps dued to the insufficient sleep last night, or the continuous walking in the afternoon. lol. congratulations and good luck for the semi-finals tomorrow! :)



the wonder of ahpeks! haha thats just so amusing. me and seemun were laughing our heads off when we saw the stall.



and also the two pigs with lots of meaning behind them but they all dont make sense! only the few of us will understand haha.

War of the Worlds, a movie that really captured my heart and left me quite speechless. i cant help but think of a dream i had some time earlier this year. somehow, i find the scenes in the movie so real and so familiar to me. can someone please explain this? the massacre is just so devastating that we teared like nobody's business. okay that sounds quite dramatic, but i'm not kidding.

anyway, we finally met up with peifen! had our dinner (addy, mun, fen, choy, rong, bingen and me) at bishan and we practically laughed at everything whenever we stepped into a shop lol.



i'm done with the exams! finished my last paper, which was biology on wednesday. wweeee! i screwed the whole of mid-years i guess, but i deserved it. didnt revise much during the holidays. sigh.

and..

wednesday is such a nice day! the best one during this period of time. i love the drizzles :)